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Space log #1020

I am sitting in front of my dashboard. My mind is going numb from consuming all that sugary rations- mainly skittles. This is bad.. Really bad..

Things in my life have been going like a voyage across the sea- I’ve had my calm waters and stormy emotional battles within myself. Admittedly I have been a sort of a loser, shying myself away from situations which I should have made clear of. I guess it’s that sort of mentality I grew up with since primary

school.

People say the past is the past, which is something we should move on with. Which I completely agree with- and yet I still wonder- no, believe that people can’t get rid of their ‘dark and gloomy’ past. Its like the time that you wish you could have agreed to having that slice of apple pie granny offered you. Or the time you wished you didn’t say all that silly stuff you weren’t thinking of to that old high-school crush.

I don’t think I’ll cut out to be a good lover. Sure I’m good at doing favours for people, but I guess at most times I think too far and end up messing myself up. fml. It’s funny how when I help troubleshoot and advise a friend’s relationship but yet can’t even act on my own relationship when I only realised what I did wrong when my own girlfriend dumps me.

I don’t know, perhaps it was a move for the better. I’m pretty sure alot of girls out there deserved better than this fool.

Yeah yeah, I know friends are the best when it comes to comforting, daily things in life and just consolidating your emotional stability. But y’all gotta admit being in a relationship has it’s own benefits- some people works better on a relationship, some don’t. I think I’m one to motivate from a relationship.. Ever since I stopped having one I’ve been pretty moody and de-motivated. Just writing about this already makes me sad inside :(  Unlike when I WAS in one the feeling I had being loved by another woman could literally make me feel like I’m flying :D CHEESY TO THE MAX!!!!

I’m sorry, mr. Ling, but I’m afraid that you have to be mature enough to realise how much it takes to love a girl.. Re-wire your head, sort out your crushes and fancy to real love, someone you’re actually sure that you would spend the rest of your life with her, someone that you would sacrifice your time and energy to, someone you would be motivated by and vice versa, someone you can share your joy and frustrations with, someone you can hold and embrace when whoever falls.

oh god, I sound so emo.  Hm.. Maybe I am, maybe I’m going crazy without someone to love. I just hope I don’t go into desperate measures to find it. (Assuming I stop seeing how immature I am.) 

God, wherever you are- I know you know what I’m yearning for, I know I’m trying my best to be patient and understanding.. But please stop testing me! ):

I’m really looking forward to finish this mentally challenging year.. It’s been one of the toughest years I’ve had in my life.. I just need a hug from her, that’s all I need. I wish I could tell her how I feel, ever since primary school I never knew why I was so attracted to her, but I think I’m feeling all the bad feelings that will happen if I tell how I really felt about her and the fear of her telling me that the feeling’s not mutual.. And besides, I AM going back home while she’s probably going to settle down in Melb.. Oh how sad the position that I’m in now!

Stay well,

Stay clean,

Stay you.

TL

“I always thought you were cute :) though I don’t think anything would ever work out between us D: So you’ll never find out who I am! Muahahahahaha!

*disappears* Anonymous

Pretty obvious who you are :/

It was fun being with you for a short while! But who knows… :’)

You’re cute too <3 but don’t phorget we’re still awesome (friends) ;P

<3 <3 <3 LP”

zzz uhm I think i’ve made a mistake- I think I’m pretty sure NOW i know who u are lol! I was reffering to another friend… initials LP -_-
So yeah, you! TP! no! totes Misunderstood! ^A^;
I didn’t really had a thing for u in the first place! not sure if you misread me or anything -_o perhaps i wasn’t watching how i was acting? iduno, lol anyway yeah, no drama- I don’t like u TP :D just friends! 

edit: hi =D

malenkayaa asked: HAPPY NEW YEARS DADDY!
Have an awesome time overseas and in Melbourne ;D
WE SHOULD SKYPEEEE SOON! XD
get your butt back to sydney soon too;
you're missing out on so much
BAHAHAHAHAHAHS xD

wow I realise I haven’t updated my account in awhile… might do so soon :D

HAPPY NEW YEAR JENA  LOL

melissahanh-deactivated20120125 asked: Why are you so cool. :0

… uhh….

dalelicious asked: Hope all is well. Miss you.

Having a blast :D Happy New Year!